A Great Peace

My last thoughts were of my oldest son, Philip, who is now at rest in Abraham’s bosom. Somewhere that is not final but eternal.

I have grieved deeply. It’s true that time helps. But I wonder, “This quickly?”  I know there are others who have grieved with me. Maybe we are all carrying this together and the burden becomes lighter. Have not thought about it that much but makes sense.

I know friends and family are praying…at times I can feel so loved by Yahweh (Lord of all) and know it’s proof of His carrying me and others on this journey through the shadow of death. How awesome this experience has become. Light overtakes darkness.

One difference is that I look up for my help now. He is so faithful!  I’m so tired of digging in a graveyard and finding nothing but bones. May Abba help me to stay in this position with my focus forward!

I used to be so afraid that Abba would never be able to use my vessel but He has shown me everyday how being His servant works. It all works by His Love.

The moral?  Give all of yourself to Him, and He will walk with you in peace and joy.

Learn what true “Shalom” is. Walk His Way.

On Being Sanctified

Today, I was talking to a friend and they were mentioning about a sin they had a problem with and how our enemy, the devil was making them feel guilty about it even though asking the Father to forgive them.  That person resisted the enemy and he did flee and my friend is doing great, learned a lesson, and walking in victory.

I thought about how when we are born again and as we learn God’s Love, laws, and commandments, we begin to grow in Him and shed our old habits and sins and become a new creature in Yeshua.

2Co 5:17
Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

For too many years I believed that once I had “been saved”, accepted Yeshua as savior, born again, baptized, filled with Holy Spirit, reading my bible,  that I would never sin again. I believed that by my will this could be done.  After many years of failing to live the “pure, holy” life I thought I should live, and failed miserable time and again, I basically gave up and worked on being a “good” person yet doing some things that I thought were alright with God…as long as I loved Him, and my neighbor as myself.  I soon found out that being a “good” person was not that easy and again tried to become holy and pleasing to God by self will.  Well, that didn’t work out either.  I didn’t give up but finally went humbly before God and asked Him for His help.

 At that point in my life, about 30 years after becoming a Christian, I had hurt many and disappointed myself, my children, family, and friends.  I was about as miserable as one can get and fell into a deep depression.  I reasoned in my unreasonable way that God needed help with me.  So again trying to help myself I went to a doctor and laid out my life and all the mistakes I had made.  Then came the psychological testing, medication, counseling and a lot of self condemnation and guilt.  Nothing helped until my doctor medicated me up enough so I wouldn’t really care any more.  At least I could smile again, work, carry on a relationship with my husband and enjoy my grandchildren somewhat.  But…OH NO!…in quiet times or boring times, or just suddenly, I would feel the weight of my sin and try to sleep it off with the help of medication.

Life goes on and changes are sure to happen.  My husband died, (more medication), my mother needed help so I lived with her until she passed away.  During the time with her, a lot of junk in my past about my early life was finally understood and I began to feel better about myself.  Being with my mother was very healing.  I found out that she loved me just the way I was and knowing that brought me a lot of peace about myself.

I really didn’t mean to get off into all this but hey, I’m going with it.  Maybe my kids will read it someday and understand a little more about why their mother was the way she was.  Or not…Guess I’m just rambling but why not! LOL!

Before my husband died, I met some people who loved God’s Word and followed a lot of Jewish teaching, practiced Shabbat, and the festivals, didn’t practice christmas, easter, or halloween, taught and lived by the 10 commandments + 613 (mostly for priest) and had a home fellowship.  I had dropped out of sunday church some years earlier (another story) and realized that Jesus/Yashua was Jewish and wondered what the early church looked like and how they worship.  These people had wondered the same thing and were trying to live the way the early church did.  I liked it a lot!  Reminded me of the HS term theme I wrote about the history of christmas.

As usual, life changes again, husband died, mom died, and I was and am living alone for the first time ever in my whole life.  I like it!  At this point, I’m retired, living partly with government help, and digging my heels into learning all I can about how God/Yahweh/Elohim wants me to live.  I can say honestly, that I’m happier than I have been since a child! I have a dog, and work a part time job caregiving for the elderly.  Sadly, all is not well.  My children rarely speak to me and I only see my grandchildren when I go see them and that is with an appointment.  So, I live with some sadness.  So what!  Life has mostly been miserable and boring except for the joy my children gave me and other activities that only brought very temporary happiness.  I had wanted to travel in my life but that has rarely happened.  Anyway, I know that I am a lot better off than most and that is alright. I know I am blessed and it has all been from God.

Changes are coming…I can feel it.  Nothing stays the same for long.

So, back to being sanctified.  At the bottom of this is Strong’s concordance explanation or definition for sanctification.  I think it explains it pretty well.  My point is that we are BEING SANCTIFIED.  It’s an ONGOING PROCESS in our relationship with God.  WE can’t do this work, I found out by trial and error, but as we wholly submit all of ourselves to Him and ask Him to do this work in us, and as we read and dig into His Word, receive willingly His correction, He will do this work in us. As long as we live on this earth, we will be an earthen vessel with faults and impurities. To become pure china or gold, we have to go through a very hot fire. (another story) If we want Him to, He will teach us, clean us up, and use us for whatever purpose He has.  We do have a purpose in this world.  There is a battle for us going on but His Word clearly says that if we trust Him, He will win the battle for us, in us, and through us.  Amen

More to come about being brought forth as gold and silver are extracted from the rock or metal.

1Co 1:27

But God hath chosen the foolish things of the world to confound the wise; and God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound the things which are mighty;

The KJV translates Strongs H6942 in the following manner: sanctify (108x), hallow (25x),dedicate (10x), holy (7x), prepare (7x), consecrate (5x), appointed (1x), bid (1x), purified (1x), misc (7x).

Outline of Biblical Usage [?]
  1. to consecrate, sanctify, prepare, dedicate, be hallowed, be holy, be sanctified, be separate

    1. (Qal)

      1. to be set apart, be consecrated

      2. to be hallowed

      3. consecrated, tabooed

      1. to show oneself sacred or majestic

      2. to be honoured, be treated as sacred

      3. to be holy

Hello world!

I didn’t realize!

This was started back in 2012 but I’m slow…meant to be a joke…anyway.

I added the app on my phone not realizing that I already had this site but under a different email so my phone is different from this one. I will have to change that…humm…on my phone of course.

I’m NOT a writer by any means but like to put my thoughts and musings down as well as lessons I’m learning from studying Yahweh’s Word.

I started studying my Hebrew roots in 2008 in a home bible study with much more learned people than myself.  I wanted to know what it was all about because the churches I had attended over the years were so depressing, disappointing, boring, and more I won’t try to explain.  I really loved some of the people but after 40 years of hearing the same messages over and over again but not seeing any changes in my life or anyone else’s, I just couldn’t take it anymore and quit going.  I continued to read Yahweh’s Word and pray, pray, pray for more truth and purpose to life and finally in 2008 a beautiful young woman walked into my life, Amber, where I worked with a glow about her that I wanted to know about. Questions were asked by me and she invited me to her home where her family had a Friday night Shabbot!  Shabbot???  What in the world was that all about?  When I went, I saw the a glow and love on faces that I had been longing to see in all the churches I had attended.  I experienced real love from them through acceptance and interest in knowing me! WOW  That was new!

All they did was read Yahweh’s Word together and discuss it with an added Jewish type ceremony.  I knew nothing about what they were doing but my mind and heart was eating it up!

I soon found that the people and relationships were not much different than the ones I knew of in Sunday churches but I was hooked by how they studied Elohim’s (God’s) Word and actually had a family type relationship with each other.  A lot of that came from being in a small group but there was something else to it.  I have discovered that the key to that bond was really obeying Elohim’s Word from the beginning of the Bible to the end.

This learning, over these years has brought about real changes in my heart and mind and a love and peace I have always wanted for my life.  I have found my identity as a believer in Yeshua haMashia, grafted into the vine of the household of our great Creator, Yahweh.  I am one of the members of the lost tribes of Israel and will one day live with Him and His people in His land.

I know this will sound like a fairy tale to the majority and have been told so by one of my children.  It’s ok, we all must make a choice and I guess I’m writing this blog so that maybe someone may learn from Elohim’s Word and find this way for themselves, if they so choose.

Many blessings and love to anyone who reads this!